Keep Calm....

And I did! With one of my best friends Silly right there with me <3



All Good Things Are Wild And Free....amen to that.

It's Official: We're Over

According to her



The best friend I was worried about recently has deleted and blocked me from her facebook. Has ignored messages and texts. And, I'm assuming, is also talking to mutual friends because at least one has deleted AND blocked me as well! Now I know our lives have become different in the past two years. She is married with a beautiful daughter, but I NEVER once thought that would change the bond that we had created.

I admit I have no idea what it is like to have a child, but that doesn't mean I can't be friends with her, does it? I used to come over, bring Paisley a Christmas present and sip Starbucks with Trish; in March I came over, played with Paisley and we got caught up on our lives.

After high school we drifted apart a bit, but every month or two we would meet for coffee, chat for 3 hours and then just got close all over again. She brought me flowers and took me to lunch when I broke up with the only man I had ever truly loved. She gave me tough love advice when it came to a new boyfriend who was wrong for me for SO many reason.

And I'm going to miss her. And miss us. And miss watching her daughter grow up. I wanted to be known as auntie Lisa...and now I'm afraid I'm going to be nobody to her. And when I eventually find the man of my dreams and get married, I wanted her to be in my bridal party, like I was in her wedding. I'd even settle for her just coming to my wedding. But for now.......for now.......


For now I just have to work on accepting this. Because it's going to take a LOT of work.....

and right now the only thing i have a lot of is tears....

these are my nights...

and my days...



I really don't feel like being here anymore...

I don't have anyone....