It's Easier To Fall...Harder To Stand

It's Easier To Cry, and Harder To Laugh

Nothing's going right. Please come and save me. Anybody.

I wish I could be funny, or witty, or charming about this. But I can't.

I'm drowning. Pull me out, please.

I'm begging.

All I Want (Who Do I Want.Who Do I Love.Who Do I Need.

Too many times I have wondered what all the trying is for
You come around
I feel so down
I'm gonna drown because I know that you're falling short

But do you know
It doesn't change the way I feel about you at the end of the day
'Cause I know that all I want is what you got
All I want is what you got

And too many times I have wanted to turn around and walk away
Knowing deep inside you can't provide what I need from you anyway

But do you know
It doesn't change the way I feel about you at the end of the day
'Cause I know that all I want is what you got
All I want is what you got



I tell you that I wanna go but I wanna stay
I tell you that I wanna go but I wanna stay
I tell you that I wanna go but I wanna stay

I wanna stay
I wanna stay
I wanna stay but I know I'm gonna lose myself this way

I wanna stay
I wanna stay
I wanna stay but I know I'm gonna lose myself this way

But do you know
It doesn't change the way I feel about you at the end of the day
'Cause I know that all I want is what you got
All I want is what you got

But this moment is all I've got
It's all I've got

done like dinnah

I will NEVER let another man speak to me the way you just did. You used the most degrading word and I don't care how many times you call I'm not going to answer. An apology isn't going to work this time.

breaking the circle

Why do I continue to allow people to upset me, make me feel inferior? I am a smart, funny, beautiful person, yet I am constantly doubting myself because.......well,because of you.

Guess what?

I'm done.

Done doubting myself

Done feeling unwanted

Done begging for acknowledgement

Done being ashamed of my accomplishments

Done wanting more.

I'm done.

Tonight, while I drink glass after glass of Shiraz alone and watch Diners, Drive-Ins and Dives, it's not you I'm thinking of. It's him. I want him here with me now. Because he makes me feel..

...like me.

Which isn't a bad thing.

FREEDOM!

TWO WHOLE DAYS OFF! Have a ton of running around to do.take care of work stuff.get my hair done.visit friend and her new baby boy.tan. mom's bday dinner at Joey's. drink.shop.

And tomorrow.....shop.tan.chiiiiilllll out.pack.

red hairs

RED HAIR FOR VEGAS, BITCH'S!!!!!

Getting my hair done tomorrow,

cannot wait! And yes, I'm awake

and will be for quite some time.

The insomnia is going nowhere fast.

guiltyguiltyguiltyguilty

Not This Again...

I awoke, only to find my lungs empty
Through the night, so it seems I'm not breathing
And now my dreams are nothing like they were meant to be
And I'm Breaking Down
I think I'm breaking down

And I'm afraid to sleep because of what haunts me
Such as living with the uncertainties
That I'll never find the words to say
Which would completely explain
Just how I'm breaking down

Someone come, Someone come and save my life
Maybe I'll sleep when I am dead
But now its like the night is taking up sides
With all the worries that occupy the back of my mind
Could it be? This misery will suffice

I've become, the simple souvenir of someone's KILL
Like the sea, I'm constantly changing from calm to ill
Madness fills my heart and soul
As if the great divide could swallow me whole
Oh, how I'm breaking down

Someone come, Someone come and save my life
Maybe I'll sleep when I am dead
But now its like the night is taking up sides
With all the worries that occupy the back of my mind
Could it be? This misery will suffice


Someone come, Someone come and save my life

Someone come, Someone come and save my life

Someone come, Someone come and save my life
Could it be? This misery will suffice