so far away

Amen, quote, ame

So many people I care about...they're far away from me. Some of them don't care about me back. that's fine.(it's so not fine, but nothing will come of it since all R's be stubborn.) Some care about me, but are too wrapped up in others to realize I need 20 minutes of face time, the most we can do while she's so far away.

People are busy, I'm busy, we're ALL busy! But you make time, 10, 20 minutes for your friends who desperately need you.

As for the close/far away friends...I'm gonna tell you when I need help...because I do right now. Scratch that. not help. just an ear for listening and a mouth for advice. I offer the same to you. This is.....



Follow the Fortune Cookie

"Now is the time to explore the nearest coast"

At 1st I thought this was the worst fortune ever, until I realized I could go visit a whole bunch of great friends in the New Year!

West Coast Trail

 I need to bike around the Seawell....that's happening next time

Pablo Neruda

I crave your mouth, your voice, your hair by Pablo Neruba
Don't go far off, not even for a day
Don't go far off, not even for a day,
Because I don't know how to say it - a day is long
And I will be waiting for you, as in
An empty station when the trains are
Parked off somewhere else, asleep.

Don't leave me, even for an hour, because then
The little drops of anguish will all run together,
The smoke that roams looking for a home will drift
Into me, choking my lost heart.

Oh, may your silhouette never dissolve
On the beach, may your eyelids never flutter
Into the empty distance. Don't LEAVE me for
A second, my dearest, because in that moment you'll
Have gone so far I'll wander mazily
Over all the earth, asking, will you
Come back? Will you leave me here, dying?

I Do Not Love You Except Because I Love You by Pablo Neruda
I do not love you except because I love you;
I go from loving to not loving you,
From waiting to not waiting for you
My heart moves from cold to fire.

I love you only because it's you the one I love;
I hate you deeply, and hating you
Bend to you, and the measure of my changing love for you
Is that I do not see you but love you blindly.

Maybe January light will consume
My heart with its cruel
Ray, stealing my key to true calm.

In this part of the story I am the one who
Dies, the only one, and I will die of love because I love you,
Because I love you, Love, in fire and blood.

Delayed Response Time


With so many ways to connect to people all over the world (like I have been doing with my friend John who is in Japan) you would think it would be easier to hear from certain people more than once or twice a week.

One time I went a whole week without a response from....I'm not going to type her name, but it takes a minute to respond. Even just today I texted a friend 2 or 3 different times with no response. Even from my mom...no response...


These all get in the way, but do NOT forget your friends... ( you are hurting them)

more like easy to blog where nobody visits, awkward to
text horrifying to talk face to face