The 19th Of January Cannot Come Soon Enough

VANCOUVER BOUND

Sarah and wine, my 2 faves

Sarah, aviators, side braids and red nail polish....more faves

Sarah, a scarf and my Nars lip gloss...more faves

Can't wait to see you, it's going to be epic. I toss that word around like glitter, but I mean it this time. And Johnny Walker will be there, in Vancouver, and so will Jennifer Juniper (who I think should come chill with us!);we will be going to the Cambie, and fun will be had by ALL! And I WILL bring my party...underpants...don't make me say the P word, B, you will die.

Sadassa!!!

trust issues

“For what it’s worth: it’s never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There’s no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you’re proud of. If you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.”

-thanks for this Ash

Hey King! I Know You Read This Soooo...

 ...thanks for making me smile. It's been quite a tough year 
 so it's nice to end it on a positive note with a shit 
eating grin on my face.

Love everything about this, I think I need to go back red....and bangs...

So Much For Everyone...

.....But I Love This Song

Listen to Ashli

Listen to Ashli

Listen to Ashli

Listen to Ashli

"Throw it out. It's empowering. Burn it"

(I'll just listen to it here)

This is the type of love I hope to one day find...

I keep a close watch on this heart of mine

I keep my eyes wide open all the time

I keep the ends out for the tie that binds

Because you're mine, I walk the line

I find it very, very easy to be true

I find myself alone when each day is through

Yes, I'll admit that I'm a fool for you

Because you're mine, I walk the line

As sure as night is dark and day is light

I keep you on my mind both day and night

And happiness I've known proves that it's right

Because you're mine, I walk the line

You've got a way to keep me on your side

You give me cause for love that I can't hide

For you I know I'd even try to turn the tide

Because you're mine, I walk the line

I keep a close watch on this heart of mine

I keep my eyes wide open all the time

I keep the ends out for the tie that binds

Because you're mine, I walk the line

That Sinking Feeling

A genuine heart, a real woman, a strong person counts for NOTHING these days, I have come to find. I wear my heart on my sleeve, I am kind and considerate yet I constantly get walked over, ignored and pushed aside for "the others". These "others" are the sometimes younger, dumbed down versions of good women who like to spend the money of men who are willing to let them.


I'm the girl guys run to to complain about their "amazing" girlfriends....maybe I'm just bitter because every time I feel like I'm getting close to something lately it blows up in my face....but there was never any dynamite around.

If someone thinks that love and peace is a cliche that must have been left behind in the Sixties, that's his problem. Love and peace are eternal. 

John Lennon

"I can't think about that right now. If I do, I'll go crazy. I'll think about that tomorrow."

Does Anyone Even Read This?

HEY FRIENDS!

I miss getting comments, peeps! I would LOVE some feedback; comments, you can 

make fun of me, give me inspiring words, random comments, opinions, 

stupid jokes, anything. It would really boost this MRF's spirits! Speaking of 

sexy MRF's, I present to you the lovely Rita. 

Remember What You're Fighting For

I wish I could. 

I've lost all motivation, all sense of self, creativity and worth. I'm undefined and I can't pinpoint this feeling, but I don't like it at all. 

I need someone to come along and breathe some hope into me. 

Stop falling in love with everything that lets you down


If he's not doing anything to keep you, then why are you fighting to stay?

"I haven't hugged you since you were 8"

Last night was difficult, but I'm happy I followed through. In the end, all you really 

have is your family and despite the time it has taken to get here I can only look 

forward from now on. 

This Is Meant For You Silly

I hope you are reading this because it's not the same without you around

no one falls in love by choice; it's by chance

I saw you screaming when no one can hear. 

You always feel ashamed that someone could be that important that without them, you feel like nothing. 


No one will ever understand how much it hurts. You feel hopeless, like nothing can save you. 


Then when it’s over, it’s gone, you almost wish you could have all that bad stuff back, so that you can have the good.”

A Good Book Has No Ending.....

Books are the quietest and most constant of friends; they are the most accessible and wisest of counselors, and the most patient of teachers.  ~Charles W. Eliot

 Outside of a dog, a book is man's best friend.  Inside of a dog it's too dark to read.  ~Attributed to Groucho Marx 

Books support us in our solitude and keep us from being a burden to ourselves.  ~Jeremy Collier

Umm....dream bedroom, right here!!!!

I find television to be very educating.  Every time somebody turns on the set, I go in the other room and read a book.  ~Groucho Marx

What's the point of you calling me so late? Pouring your heart out again? It only hurts you and me both in the end...

Paris?

the jewellery, the travel temptation...love

Back To Basics

To Me:

Digging Up The Past

Came home early from work tonight, haven't been feeling so great. Decided to grab my old journals and read through them. Not quite sure if this was a good decision or not, I definitely have been reminded of some things that I wish I could erase from my memory. But then I get to relive some amazing moments of my life with my family and friends.

Here's where I ended tonight with some random blathering; pretty normal for me:
May 6/08

Why do....
I love being alone?
Rainstorms make me happy?
People believe in God?
People never signal when turning?
I always say the wrong thing?
I let people get to me?
Puppies make me fee better?
I have the urge to drive with my eyes closed?
I enjoy my blankets so much?
I need music everyday?
I sountrack my moods with music and songs?
Boys lie?
Boys suck?
Some boys defy the odds?
Those boys stick with me?
I love him?
I think he loves me?
I keep procrastinating?
I want SO much?
My friends not get it anymore?
I love the First 48 so much?
I have people that love the mess that is me?

HAPPINESS

What is the meaning of life? To be happy and useful.

 Tenzin Gyatso,14th Dalai Lam