What Makes Me Happy

1. Books
2. List making
3.Fresh Journals and Coloured Pens
4.The Smell of Rain and Coconuts
5.My Camera
6.Getting My Hair Brushed
7.My Bed
11.Cocktail Rings
12.Travelling (It Gives Me That Funny Feeling In My Tummy)
13.A Stack Of Magazines and a Huge Pile of Pillows
14.The Colour Green
16.Gala Apples
18.Leggings and Oversized Sweaters
19.Forgetting Sarah Marshall
21.Odd Numbers (but they have to be even #'s on the volume on tv)
22.Reality TV
25.Long Walks With My Ipod
26.Coke (can only!)
33.My Sister
34.My Silly Sarah
35.A Good Moisturizer
36.Water Bottles

That list shouldn't have taken so long to write....but I'm happy I was able to come up with that much at all. I'm confident I can get this to 100....let go of the stress, just LET.IT.GO!
Happiness shouldn't be a project...but since setting goals and creating projects make me smile, why shouldn't I go full force?

Trusting myself, trusting my gut, this will keep me sane and keep me happy. Too often I ask for the opinion of others, I worry about the perception. Sometimes following your heart is harder than staying the course. Why am I so concerned what others think?

Truthfully, I can be a judgemental person, so I know that is why I worry about what others think and say about me. The more I think about it,though, why would other people spend their time worrying about what I wear,what I do,what I say? They don't. So I need to stop living for them and living for me. I'm going to make some changes and it will be good.

This should be interesting...

you can do this...



Time to crawl back in the shell....didn't think I could get any deeper but I can.

I want....

I can't wait to decorate the new bedroom/bathroom combo my amazing dad is creating for me! It's also a great way for me to keep myself occupied. I want, I want, I want!



What is it about me that says "I'm a target, I'm here to be your punching bag, i'm weak"?

I'm sensitive, this I know. Fragile,though? I was told that my fragility is the reason I'm in so much turmoil right now. I'm being tested by someone who knows that instead of fighting I usually back down. Yes, I cried all the way home today. Yes, my eyes are still puffy and red five hours later. Yes, I haven't slept for weeks.

Karma is a bitch, and so are you.


Why don't you

I'm gonna smile at work, with friends,
with family, strangers until I feel like
the independent,creative, funny, smart,
loyal person that I am.

Day By Day
Step By Step
I WILL overcome.

'If you don't love yourself, how in the HELL you gonna love somebody else"



This is a good thing.

This is a great thing.

Don't get caught up in perception, there was nothing there to begin with.

Yes. Really...


What A Nice Change!

Had an amazing first date with a funny, charming, sweet and interesting guy.

Skydiving, dinner and walking out of a terrible, terrible movie. Full of laughs and an old fashioned first kiss at my door.

Maybe there really are a few nice guys left in this world.....

UPDATE: He was a giant turd sandwich with extra douch bag on top